Monday, August 27, 2012

My Week in Utah

i spent a week in Utah for a business convention. doesn't that sound boring?

the opposite of boring, folks. the complete opposite. my family, and this company? boring is not an option.

how about a little rundown?

Monday, the 13th:

We left bright and early, as we were driving to the beehive state (seriously, utah? the BEEHIVE state?)
There was a quick stop at the oral surgeon's office, to get my new syringe toy to clean out the holes in my gums from the wisdom teeth operation. delicious, you say? i know.
we love roadtrips in our family. in 2009, we went on a road trip for a month. that's right, 30 states in 30 days. we've been meaning to write some sort of blog/book about it. yes, we know it has been three years. but i'll let you know if it ever comes to fruition.
so anyways, this 12 hour jaunt was really nothing too crazy for us. it was just my parents and me, as my brother would fly from san francisco to meet us in utah.
i've taken this specific drive twice before, but was still so incredibly fascinated by the world outside my window. maybe a little too fascinated. i had to delete many a nature photo. but i saved a few for you:

like... can you handle it? maybe you can. i couldn't. if you'd like to see a little more nature, click here.

also, on the trip up, we passed by one of the top earners in the company, in his RV and toy truck. as in, the trailer he keeps his fun four wheeler type things, not a tonka.

OH and I had CHIPOTLE.

we arrived in utah by 9:30, and slept in our family friend's father's house. ooh, say that five times fast.

Tuesday, August 14:

the morning looked a lot like this:

i was still in a little bit of pain, and also struggling a teeeensy bit with the altitude change. 

this is the house we slept in:

i know, right? perfect.

we made the short trip to the corporate offices:

they have the best little cafe(teria) in there: amazing salads, especially, plus REVS
 (oops, my 2nd that day)

we then checked in to our hotel smack in the middle of salt lake city, right across fromt the convention center. this was our view!

and this was my outfit:

we explored for a bit, and stumbled upon this adorable pastry shop.

did that 3 picture thing work?? great. it was freaking cute and also delicious.

what next?? whole foods, of course. i decided you didn't need pictures of that. this is already getting lengthy.

i did get some new running shoes that night at REI. fancypants:

Wednesday, August 15:

On this day, we registered for the convention and went to a few awesome breakout sessions/trainings:.

my brother and me, sort of color coordinating:

in the middle of the store! more fancypants. also! see that white-haired man in the pink/blue shirt? that's our founder. usually, he's in a lab coat. casual wednesday?

pretend you can see my face!

that night, we went to USANAfest, which was at the USANA amphitheater (are you sure it's -er, spellcheck?) outside the city. Belinda Carlisle, Eddie Money, Tommy Shaw, and Kenny Loggins! It was such a great time. 

the family! mom was looking at another camera...

OK I'm gonna stop here for a bit because we are halfway through and this is SO LONG already. i will pick up where i left off.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Loving More

This week, I've been doing a little personal experiment.

On the twelve hour car ride to Utah, I had a bit of an epiphany. There's something about the open road that inspires me. I know I'm not the only one. Just those long, straight stretches. It really feels like the road of life. Life is a Highway, eh?


I was thinking about things I don't like. Pet peeves. Personality traits. Physical traits. Situations, feelings. The list, though relatively short, goes on. There are certain things that illicit a very visceral reaction from me.

So I saw something, on the drive, that I had historically disliked. But that feeling, that negative feeling... it doesn't make me feel good. And so I thought:

why not love that?

Why not replace the "I hate that" with "I love that," even if it might not be true?
People say it's all about the mindset, and I like to think I live my life that way most of the time. If you think it, it will be. The Secret, the Law of Attraction, the Universe, call it what you will. If I just make the conscious decision to bring a positive thought into my brain, what are the possibilities?

I felt my mood instantly lift. And so I've been practicing. Every time I see something and go to think "Ugh, I don't like that," I instead think "just love that. embrace it."

Sometimes it makes no sense, because sometimes things just aren't good and deserve to be disliked. But. Some things are just a matter of my personal taste, and I am not everyone else. Everyone else is not me. And so I put myself in the shoes of another for just a millisecond and I love that. People deserve to make their own choices and it doesn't serve me to think negatively about things I can't change.

It's not even just about me. It's about opening my mind, thinking about others. Learning about humans. Understanding them and ACCEPTING them, above all. Because that's all I want out of anyone: to be accepted and respected.

So I'm doing this little experiment.
And I'm a lot happier for it so far.

**perhaps an adendum post on what the word love means to me. it has been evolving**

Monday, August 13, 2012

En Route to Utah

There are a few things that make me endlessly happy.
One of them is driving on highways meant only for long distance travelers, with only billboards for rest stops, mcdonalds, and casinos guiding the way.
Another is, of course, the air conditioning in our car as the sun raises temperatures to 105 degrees.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

recovery day 3

All is painful on my mouth's front. I mean... back.

Ok, it isn't THAT bad.

(...but it kind of is.)

The pain is in a lovely ebb and flow stage, so I've been rotating through stages, including "get the frozen peas," "is it time for another Vicodin yet?" and "I'm starving where's the food?!"

It has been quite a ride. The vicodin definitely messes with me a bit, pushing me into a sort of half-consciousness, complete with dizzy spells and all that jazz. It does a pretty good job dulling the pain, but it takes its sweet ass time.

I'm looking pretty interesting. I think I'm the most swollen today, though if you didn't know me you'd think my face was just a little bottom-heavy. My sister made a joke about me storing food in my cheeks for later. Original.

I am absolutely relishing the care I've been getting the past few days. My fam has been so wonderfully accommodating and truly sweet. So I'm kind of on the fence about whether I'd like this to all be over, because when my parents ask me if I need anything, I feel like a little babe again and it's oh so good.

I do kind of miss working out though (Eee!), and I would just love to eat a little solid food.
So, maybe this jig should be up.

(Also I totally realize this title is over-dramatic. I'm aware this was minor surgery, but hey, I'm not in ORs very often. Gotta milk it while I can, amiright?)

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

four fewer teeth and much better for it

we are nearing the end of day one of recovery.

I have been on the couch since about 11am.

Here's how the morning went down:

woke up at 7:30, took antibiotic.
left around 8:30, arrived at office at 9.
filled out paperwork and anxiously waited.
taken back to the operating room around 9:30.
I am given a blanket as they ask about allergies and possible pregnancy (lol no).
my blood pressure is taken (and then again and again every 5 minutes)
arms and legs are strapped down.
the laughing gas is administered.
I start to play with my heart rate by breathing the gas in super quickly and exhaling very slowly.
I think this is hilarious.
I realize why they call it laughing gas.
suddenly the doctor comes in and gets right down to business.
he tightened a rubber band around my wrist (holy crap that hurt) and put in the IV.
some inappropriate places started burning/tingling (i was warned about this by megan).
I felt rushes of THINGS, like the iv fluid was coursing through my veins, and then nothing else.

I don't remember falling asleep, I don't remember any part of the surgery, didn't hear any sounds, and woke up feeling like it had only been five minutes.

this was really trippy for me. as I mentioned, last time I was 'under' was a solid 18 years ago. It's the weirdest not being able to remember anything that happened in my mouth to remove all four of those pesky wisdom teeth.

The last thing I remember is thinking about the laughing gas: COMMIT THIS TO MEMORY. THIS IS THE BEST FEELING EVER. uhm, does that sound problematic to you?

I was nice and loopy when I woke up, and thankfully couldn't feel anything. I was in such a good place in the recovery room, just on the cusp on consciousness and kind of feeling like I was floating. (again, problem?)

My dad drove me home and I went right to the couch, where I've been ever since.
The pain has been manageable for the most part, but when the IV wore off.... ROUGH.
Vicodin is my new bff, and yes I realize I now sound like a major drug addict. It's. Fine.

I've been catching up on all the blogs I follow and, of course, the Olympics since Saturday.
My diet has consisted of frozen yogurt, green juice, cold soup, watermelon, a protein shake, and now some eggs are being whipped up for me. Constantly hungry but can't really chew. So.

My sister also brought me flowers, which was extremely sweet and brightened up the whole day. They smell delightful as well.

I'm nervous for tomorrow because I hear the second day is more uncomfortable than the first, but I have the couch and my trusty pill bottle, so I think I'll get through it.

Monday, August 6, 2012

losing my wisdom

I'm getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow.

I'm a little nervous because I haven't actually been under any sort of anesthetic or had any sort of real procedure since I had a hernia... in 1994. So. there's that.

But mostly I'm excited, because let's be real— I love getting taken care of.
I also like soft foods.
Frozen yogurt.
Mac n cheese.
Green juice!

I can't drink water (or eat/drink anything else) starting at midnight until after my surgery (which is at 9AM). This really isn't that big of a deal but now that water is forbidden I AM SO THIRSTY. I'm also used to drinking 2-3 liters of water a day so that pretty much equates to me always having water wherever I am.

I should be reading/watching the Olympics/possibly blogging a bit more in the next few days.
That's all I have planned.


this whole post could have been that sentence.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

the eighth month

oh hey, august.

i'm happy you are here. you are the motivation i need to get myself in gear to really prepare for moscow. you hold the final 31 days of summer. the final 31 days of being away from my favorite place on earth, and some of my favorite people.

you are a poetic month. an action-packed month.

i thought about resisting your arrival, panicking about the dwindling days of this glorious season. but there's no resisting you; time passes. and why should i? there are so many great things ahead. i am ready to really start up life again, turbo charged. summer is a standstill, and you can't stay frozen for too long.

i love this place but i love adventure more. there is adventure of every kind coming up once my plane touches down in new york. adventures with myself, with others, with foreign places. all-encompassing adventures.

august, you bring me one month closer to these beautiful things.
how could i complain?