Apart from the pictures I took in the city with Megan, I haven't taken a picture for my 365 in a few days. At least I don't think. The one good thing about this is that I can take a still from my daily vlog, so I don't have to miss a day, though it will be far from a great photo (that isn't the point of 365, is it?)
The days are speeding by; somehow there are only two and a half weeks of class left, which seems pretty close to impossible considering how much I have to do. I'm doubly excited and saddened by the approach of the end of the year. I've never had a busier semester, and I just wish to feel like I'm on top of things again, which I don't anticipate happening until my Econ final is over on May 11. All of my blog posts have centered around my busy stress lately, but it's not as depressing as it may seem; just a good outlet for me to write things down so I have fewer thoughts racing around in my brain. I know it all has started to sound the same, though, so my apologies to anyone reading.
I had an extreme realization that I'm halfway through my time at Vassar, and, if I go abroad, I've already completed more semesters than I'll have left when I get back. I'm not ready for that! It goes so so quickly, and while we're always looking forward to our next break, I think we forget how truly lucky we are to be here. How special this place is. I'm afraid I'll graduate not feeling like I got enough time here. But I know if I do feel that, I'll probably also feel that I've spent too much time here... everything will balance out and it will all be okay. It's just crazy to think that I graduate in 2 years—the same amount of time it has been since I graduated high school.
We think we have all the time in the world, but we don't. And that's okay, if we're making the most of it. We'll have enough if we're taking advantage of every day. The question is, what does that really mean?
I'll do my very best to enjoy these last four weeks: in my bedroom, in Main, as a sophomore, less than halfway through my college career, as far away from adulthood as I'll ever be, and the youngest I'll ever be.
I'll be, and I won't wish to be anywhere else.