It's hard when life is great and happiness should abound but feelings of insecurity and a severe lack of self-worth stand in the way of feeling the good.
I just want to understand what's wrong, to know if it's serious or just... normal human stuff. I want to stop overanalyzing everything I do and say, the way I look and dress, the way people treat me. I want to be confident that I am a person worth spending time with, worth knowing.
I feel confident about so little these days, even though I sometimes refuse to acknowledge it. I'm here and I'm so lucky and I'm not sad. Just overwhelmed with thoughts, 24/7. Not giving myself credit, not thinking I'm enough.
It's a lot, and it hurts.